June 12, 2108

Real talk:  I have very little left for my kids today.  It's a strange and discouraging feeling because we checked everything we were supposed to do off today.  For some reason, I am going absolutely crazy anyway. 

Today, I hate parenting advice even more than usual.  I hate all of the ideas of "you'll miss this" and "you become your child's inner voice" and the never enough of activities and parenting and patience.  It's a bottomless pit of never going to be good enough.  I want to let everyone out there know that I love schooling my children.  More than that, I love being a mom to my children.  But today, I struggled.  I struggled with exhaustion, I struggled with anxiety, I struggled with patience, and I struggled kids who were pretty wound up.  And it's okay.  I am trying to carve out more time-outs for myself.  

  

 Our Father's day cards: You're one in a melon! We did this with friends that we are trying out for an art coop.

 The PS didn't want to sit and do school for as long as the 2nd, so I had some activities out for her: stones, felt board, and books.  Really, she wanted to go play.  I spent the school time reminding myself that routine and structure come over time.  She will acclimate over time.  Consistency is key.  Or in other words, she won't drive me this crazy everyday.

Book work today was rough after a week break (This is why I hate breaks).  Most of it was done just like this; one knee resting on the chair and the rest of his body waiting for the right moment to flee.  But we did finish a chunk of math and two grammar pages.